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Feelings


(GRAPH October 2003) - Translated by Bunretsu





"To admire/to long for"

Recently I went to an island in the south and tried scuba diving, which I had longed to do for many years. I had a desire to stay underwater for a long time; I did not take on this challenge for the sake of seeing fish or corals, but just because I wanted to be underwater. When I actually tried scuba diving, though, the ocean was full of beautiful corals and fish… I discovered a mysterious unknown world and thought, "Now I'm hooked" (laughs). Until then, I had only seen coral that was washed up on the beach, so I was surprised when I saw for the first time how beautiful it is. I thought scuba diving would be more difficult, but it was unexpectedly simple to do. Even though it was my first time, the instructor let go of my hand and I even swam off by myself. The instructor complimented me, saying "Great!" I was really surprised when a sea cucumber was brought out underwater, though. (laughs)


"To rush"

I think I should be in a rush more often (laughs). I really take it easy, you know! Even though I have to do something, I don't do it. (laughs) I'm scared of myself for being so leisurely and taking things easy (laughs). There are also times when I tell myself this won't do and do things a little faster, but everyone tells me that they can't see a difference. In the rehearsal hall, I do not take it easy, but at home—regardless of whether there are things I have to do—I spend quite a lot of time sitting on the sofa staring blankly at the television for no reason… Being in a hurry is something I should do more often. (laughs)


"To have fun"

I had the honor of being a cheerleader as entertainment at a party recently. The team of cheerleaders consisted of six people: Chiharu-san (Yabuki Sho), Saota-san (Takashou Mizuki), me, Tomoyo (Mayuzuki Kou), Asako (Sena Jun), and Yumiko (Ayabuki Mao). It was a lineup of prominent people (laughs). We were very powerful (laughs). We had been invited to do this and we did not know how much time we would have to practice so there was some uncertainty, but we said "We will do what we can" and were allowed to participate. That was fun (laughs). The process of preparing the wigs, hair ornaments, and costumes, and practicing all together was really fun. We were the life of the party. When they even called for an encore (laughs), I was very glad we participated.


"To be satisfied"

The other day, I went to someone's concert. During a scene with a certain song, I shed tears. I was exactly in the same circumstances as described in that song's lyrics. It may have been because I could sympathize with the song, but more than the lyrics themselves, it was the sense that the atmosphere of the stage at that moment filled something that was missing. You could say that that atmosphere produced by the stage was something that was necessary for me at the time, something that I had wanted… It is very difficult to express this with words, but when I realized that this was what had not been satisfied within myself, the tears came out naturally, I think.

"To hesitate"

When I buy something related to the theatre or things like clothes for a photo shoot, I am usually willing to spend a lot of money, but I hesitate about buying even a little candy in a convenience store (laughs). I wonder why (laughs). Maybe because it's not something I want no matter what? Even when I think "I kinda want to eat some candy…" I still won't buy it (laughs). My troubles are mostly convenience store-related (laughs). To buy or not to buy? (laughs) With clothing, I never know when I will find something like that again, so I decisively buy even high-priced items, but I can always buy the things they sell in a convenience store some other time. Maybe that's why (laughs). Even if I should buy it then, I'm like, "Ah, I'll just get it later. No, I'll get it now! Ah, but later's fine." (laughs). That's how I hesitate (laughs).

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